[IQRA'-READ] |
I
should be studying. I should be revising. I should be memorizing cases and
sections of some Act of Parliament. I should be dissecting and scrutinizing the
four scholars of Islamic jurist opinions. But I am sitting in front of my lap
top churning ideas into words, words into sentences and sentences into
paragraphs with a hope that it will eases my stress and tension. I think the
panic button had fully become operative and there is no way to turn it off. It
is ringing, blaring and buzzing into my heart, body, soul and mind. At last
folks, I am writing this very piece of my observation of myself as per my
tagline.
The
panic button actually did not suddenly go off blaring reaching 7 or 8 on the Richter
scale. It is more like the volcanic activity, slowing spewing smoke out. It started
few weeks ago when I realized I needed a certain book published by the IIUM’s
Research Centre. I drove to the varsity and making a mental note of the centre.
Since it was a week day, I cannot park at the Law Centre where I could easily walk to the Research Centre. There is ample parking at the
Research Centre, but then, IIUM is a one way street. And the Centre though situated
near the entrance, one has to drive a full circle, and I missed the entrance.
Hence, I have to make another circle around the varsity!
Circling
the varsity campus twice gave me a different perspective of things. First, do
not take for granted that you know the place, given the fact I frequent it
every Saturday for the last 7 months! Secondly, driving and walking is two
different activity altogether. Third, do not do things last minute, i.e. do not
procrastinate. The walk to the Research Centre was pleasant with nicely crop
greenery and well trimmed pathway. A beautiful garden. Well, IIUM tagline is
Garden of knowledge and virtue anyway. With minimal signage I ended up in the
office level instead and was politely directed to the ground floor where they
sell their publications.
Sitting
for an examination after years of obtaining my first degree was an over
whelming experience. The answering technique is another 300 word story by
itself. Though the tension and stress is
the same, being matured students have its advantages. Upon observing fellow
course mate leaving the examination room a good hour ahead of time, I calmly
told myself that they must be writing at neck breaking speed while I have to practically
write each alphabet like preschoolers!
Two papers down another 2 to go. To our disappointment, no one died
today, no one commit murder either intentionally or accidental except
for one euthanasia. The day before,
people died by the dozen and we had our hands full handling all their estate
and distributing them to their rightful heirs! Exam temperature is rising on Acepaizah...
exam fever butterfly kisses
~Acepaizah~
[motivating frame greeted me @ the Research Centre] |
exam fever butterfly kisses
~Acepaizah~